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27 December 2006 @ 08:24 pm
Seattle Grace Hospital  
Addison had left the trailer, a heavy feeling hovering over her. She knew the moment she and Derek shared in the trailer wouldn't be their last happy moment together. There were going to be lots of moments in which they would go out and find their love for one another again. The only problem was they would have to make time to work things out, to talk about the past, about Mark and Meredith, about why they fell apart.

It wasn't fair. Why couldn't they just know and move on? Why did they have to bring out the pain and everything that's happened? Addison knew it was something they needed to do. She knew very well without talking about those things, their marriage would fall apart again. She just wished they could fast forward through all of that and just be happy, just be Addison and Derek.

Of course, life never worked that way and they would have to battle it out, hoping and keeping faith that they would come out of it alive and stronger than ever.

She'd gotten Finn's first text message on her way to the hospital but decided against texting him back until she got to the hospital; however, by then he'd already withdrawn his first request and told her to take a rain check. Noting that she really needed to talk to him, Addison made a mental note to contact him later. The night before had been complicated and she was sure she'd led him on. Now things were different and she was going to work things out with Derek so she needed to tell him. He was a good friend and she was sure that she would need his shoulder to lean on when things got tough with Derek so she needed to be absolutely honest with him.

Her day had gone on with very little difficulty. Everything was the same as always. Patients, babies, mothers; just the same thing she dealt with on a day to day basis. Her mind however drifted to Derek quite often. They always had, but this had gotten to a point where she almost couldn't keep her mind off of it. Her mind was on Derek when she walked down the halls. It was on Derek when she wrote notes in a chart. The only time she could tear her mind away from Derek was when she was actually in surgery. She was a surgeon and her patients deserved the best. She would not let her personal life jeopardize a patient's life.

Now Addison was staring blankly down at a chart at the nurses' station, pen in hand but unmoving. All she could think about was Derek, wondering when she'd be able to see him again, when they could have a moment like they'd had that morning. She missed the sheer bliss and playfulness they'd always shared in the beginning of their relationship. The morning let her get a glimpse of that again and all she wanted was for every moment to be just like that; Addison and Derek, the way they were supposed to be. It was just a dream, but it was dream she was going to hold on to.
 
 
 
dr_shep on December 28th, 2006 05:49 am (UTC)
Derek had done exactly what he'd told Addison he was going to do. He was confused and needed 'Derek' time, so he went fishing. After taking an aspirin and finding sunglasses (because it was a sunny day in Seattle and he still had a little bit of a headache), he took the short walk to the lake that lined the property.

His morning with Addison had been nothing short of perfect. They had been like that early in their relationship. Smiling hadn't been a rare occasion. It hadn't been a special occasion because they always smiled. They had loved completely and without pretense.

That might have been the reason they had drifted apart, Derek realized as he fished. They had loved each other too much. They had so much faith in the fact that their love would last for ever, that they didn't think they had to work on it. Derek would always love Addison, and Addison would always love Derek. And when they had stopped working on it (and just lived on faith) their love had disappeared.

Derek would never let that happen again. He now knew that happy moments weren't enough to make a marriage laugh. They had to work for it.

And they were heading into the toughest most difficult work they woulld ever have to go through for their marriage. They would have to hurt. They would have to face their mutual errors. Derek would have to face how he had hurt Addison twice: once when he had been absent enough in New York to drive her into Mark Sloan's arms and once when he had slept with Meredith Grey at prom. Addison would have to face her adultery. It wouldn't be easy for either of them.

Derek was afraid, but he loved Addison. Love would be enough. They would face this and come out stronger than ever. They would become Derek and Addison once again.

He had planned to spend his entire day fishing before returning to the trailer and taking it easy. He was playing hooky from work, and medicine was the furthest thing from his mind. The only thing on his mind was Addison.

Then Richard Webber had called sometime around three o'clock asking Derek to come to a meeting about one of Seattle Grace's Neurology Residents. So Derek's fishing trip was cut short, and he returned to the trailer to change and shower (it was then that he realized the sunglasses he found actually belonged to Addison). After that he drove into the hospital.

The meeting with Richard had been simple, some paperwork and discussion. Derek noted that Richard was much colder to him than Derek had ever really experienced. That was probably a result of Derek's tryst with an intern at prom. Richard seemed to still be holding that over his head, and Derek knew he deserved it. He would gain his mentor's respect by working on his marriage.

After he left Webber's office, Derek headed towards the nurse's station, wondering if Addison were even still at the hospital. A grin spread across his face when he saw her leaning against the counter with her pen poised to write something. He watched her for a moment before coming up behind her and placing her sunglasses in the middle of the chart.

"I believe these are yours."
xaddis0nx on December 28th, 2006 06:18 am (UTC)
Addison hadn't noticed that Derek placed her sunglasses onto the chart, but jumped when her train of thought was interrupted at the sound of Derek's voice. She looked at him confusedly for a moment before looking down at the chart and her pair of sunglasses before everything fully registered in her mind. Laughing softly at her distracted and confused state, she shook her head and looked up at him with a small smile.

"Thanks, Derek," she said softly, picking up her sunglasses and pocketing them.

When she looked up at Derek, she had an intense desire to just throw her arms around him and take them back to where they'd been that morning. Of course, she resisted, knowing that that doing that would cause a major stir in the hospital. She could just imagine it. Every nurse, every hospital employee, talking about how Satan steals McDreamy from Meredith again. Then, of course, more exaggerated and different reasons would come out of it. Speculation turned into rumors. She didn't want to go through that just yet.

"What're you doing here?" she wondered softly, keeping her voice low, hoping no one would overhear. "I thought you were playing hooky."
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xaddis0nx on December 28th, 2006 09:16 am (UTC)
Around six, Addison finished checking up on the last of her patients and did the rest of the charting for the day. As she walked out of the hospital and into the parking lot, she pulled out her cell phone, ready to call Derek as she'd promised him earlier. Once she got into the car, away from any open ears, Addison hit speed dial one and waited for Derek to answer.

As she waited, her mind went straight to what exactly they were doing tonight because she really had no clue. It would be nice to say that she was completely ready to face their challenges head-on, but she wasn't. There hadn't been a time when she'd been more scared. Her life and her future depended on what was to come next for her and Derek. She couldn't imagine a life without Derek and she didn't want to ever have to live it.
dr_shep on December 28th, 2006 09:20 am (UTC)
Derek was lying on the couch reading a book when he heard his cell phone ringing. The book was more for pretense than enjoyment because Derek couldn't recall a single thing he'd read. He just kept thinking about Addison. He didn't know what he would say when he finally saw her. He didn't know what they would do. It was just a mess of fear and confusion.

With a sigh, he unhooked his phone from his waist and brought it to his ear, "Hi."
xaddis0nx on December 28th, 2006 09:35 am (UTC)
"Hey, it's me," Addison replied softly. She took a moment's pause, still not sure what to say or do. "Do you--do you want to meet somewhere? The trailer? A restaurant? The hotel?"

Frankly, Addison had no idea which would be the best idea. There were several things she could reason for each, but in the end, she just didn't know. The trailer was warm and cozy, somewhere they'd lived together for months. It was secluded and far from everything and everyone. Escape (if needed) could be easy, but it could also be hard. Getting back to the hotel late at night wouldn't be too great. A restaurant would be nice for just spending time together. The public setting would prevent them from being able to deal with anything of real hurtful substance when it came to conversing. That was only good if they decided to take things easy for now and deal with the bigger things later. The hotel was surrounded by many places they could go to if they talked and needed to get away. It, like the trailer, provided a cozy feeling but was rather new and something out of what they were used to together.

Everything had it's ups and downs and Addison just couldn't weigh out the possibilities of which being better, especially when she didn't even know if they were going to really talk about everything or not. She would leave the decision up to Derek, or at least, have him contribute his thoughts before actually deciding.
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dr_shep on December 29th, 2006 08:18 am (UTC)
Derek shook his head, guiding her chopsticks back to the take out box and making her drop it. If Addison was going feed him then he needed to reciprocate the gesture. No, not needed, wanted to return the gesture. It was cute, and he loved the intimacy.

"Fantastic," He answered, picking up his own chopsticks and taking a piece of the chicken to her lips, "We haven't had Kung Pao chicken like this since New York. Did you find a new take-out place?"
xaddis0nx on December 29th, 2006 08:32 am (UTC)
Her smile grew wider as Derek tried to feed her as well. Addison gladly accepted the piece of Kung Pao chicken and took it into her mouth, chewing it slowly and making sounds of enjoyment as she savored the taste. Derek was right. This really was just as good as the Kung Pao chicken they'd had in New York, just like this moment was becoming reminiscient of some of their best times there.

She nodded her head as she chewed and swallowed, bringing the glass of ice water to her lips and washing it down. "Yeah, I came across it on my way here," she replied, leaving out the fact that she'd only come across it because she had decided to take a longer route to the trailer. She'd needed time to collect herself to get her thoughts together and prepare her for this. She was glad that she did since it'd allowed them to share this together even if it hadn't really helped it straightening out everything in her mind.
dr_shep on December 29th, 2006 08:41 am (UTC)
Derek watched as Addison enjoyed the chicken, and he momentarily wondered if she was trying to tease him. Those sounds were cute and made him want to have his way with her right there. Although, that wasn't any different than any other moment. He always wanted Addison.

Leaning forward, he pressed another kiss to the corner of her mouth. He didn't mention that he couldn't think of a single Chinese restaurant (other than the one they'd ordered from a couple of times) between the hospital and the trailer because it really wasn't that big of a deal. Addison needed his trust.

"I told you it was good."
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She had spent months with Mark. She had loved him. Or at least thought she had. She had tried to be happy with him. Mark and Addison had been lovers. They hadn't been a one night stand. They had been a couple.

Words like love weren't thrown around without any meaning, and he was suddenly assaulted with visions. He could see Mark on top of Addison that rainy night in New York that had completely turned his life upside down. He had visions of Mark's arms wrapped around Addison as they ate dinner, feeding each other like he had done with Addison just minutes earlier. He could imagine Mark's hands exploring Addison's body, his lips covering her skin.

Derek recoiled at this final vision and dropped his face into his hands. His Addison wasn't supposed to be happy with anyone. She wasn't supposed to give her body away to anyone, and she'd given everything away to Mark.

When it had been one night (even two), everything had been different. It had been Addison's stupidity and loneliness, but this wasn't just that. She had been seeking someone to replace him, and she had almost succeeded. Mark's inability to commit had been the only thing that stood in the way.

He didn't know what to say. He didn't know what to think. All he could think about was Mark doing things to Addison that only Derek should have been allowed to do.
xaddis0nx on December 30th, 2006 11:12 pm (UTC)
Addison looked away from Derek as she saw him bury his face in his hands. She knew that what she'd said had hurt him and she knew that there were many things that he would say that would leave her feeling the same way, that is, if he could ever decide that everything was worth it. Derek could stop right now if he wanted and tell her that he couldn't do this anymore, that he couldn't forgive her for the sins she'd committed. Then it would all be over.

She didn't want to lose him. Willing to do anything, Addison would readily travel back in time and change everything if she could. The only problem was she couldn't. What's done was done and she couldn't take any of it back; neither of them could. The damage was done and fixing it would be the hardest task they would ever have to do.

"I never loved him, Derek," Addison continued softly as she stared at the floor, knowing he wouldn't be saying anything anytime soon. "I tried...so hard after I knew you weren't coming back. I tried to heighten his appealing traits and tried to tell myself that he could make me happy. But the truth was, Derek, he could never be you and I could never love him the way I love you."

Tears rolled down her cheeks as she sat silently for a moment, recalling the miserable nights she had in New York. She would find herself missing Derek and would get Mark to take her out followed by a long night of sex. At times all she wanted was to forget Derek, forget all the good times they had together. She never could and it just about haunted her the whole time she'd been with Mark. She was able to make everyone believe she'd been happy, but she wasn't able to fool herself.
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dr_shep on December 31st, 2006 02:49 am (UTC)
He watched as Addison raised to her full height and announced that she was leaving. He'd been listening to her tell him about her affair with Mark and apologize for it. He hadn't been able to talk and hadn't even realized that she was probably expecting him to respond.

What she had said had been shocking. It hadn't been what he had expected, and it hurt more than he would have ever thought. The thought of Addison with Mark Sloan was unfathomable. There was nothing he could say. Still no words could communicate what he was feeling. Words weren't invented for pain like this.

But he couldn't let Addison go. He didn't want her to leave. Even though she had hurt him and betrayed him in unimaginable ways, he didn't want her to leave. That was probably a product of their promise to rediscover their love or something. Because if this had happened days before, he would have wanted to hurt Addison, but he knew it wasn't just her fault. He had brought it on himself. He had driven her into another man's arms.

As she wiped away a few more tears from her eyes, Derek realized again that she was probably waiting for some sort of reaction. He shook his head, trying to communicate that he wanted her to stay without using any words. She was obviously reluctant and hurting as much as he was (or at least her body language and tear-stained face suggested that).

He had to get the image of Mark touching Addison out of his mind. He had to know that her body belonged to no one other than himself. He knew what he had to do, or he hoped that this was what he had to do.

Derek inhaled shakily and pushed himself to his feet, hoping this was the right thing. He reached an unsure hand out to her and took her wrist in his, pulling her closer. With as much confidence that this was the right thing to do as he could muster, Derek brought his lips to hers after whispering, "I don't want anyone else to ever do this to you, again."
xaddis0nx on December 31st, 2006 06:26 am (UTC)
To say Addison was surprised would have been the biggest understatement of the century. She was so shocked that she even forgot to close her eyes as Derek's lips pressed against hers, his tongue slipping into her mouth. Addison stood frozed for a moment, staring at him as their lips remained locked before she finally got a hold on what was happening and she began to kiss him back.

This was the exact opposite of what she'd expected from Derek. She had expected that Derek would throw her out, tell her that he never wanted to see her again. None of her previous thoughts had led her to believe that this could happen.

Derek was kissing her, even after everything that she had just told him. He wanted no one to ever kiss her or do anything else to her again. He still wanted her. There was no way to describe the incredible relief the swept over her body. She couldn't be happier in this moment than she was right now. There was more pain to come. She knew that. But right now, for everything that was said and done, this was perfect.

Addison relaxed into his touch and closed her eyes, kissing him back and enjoying the feeling their lips brushing against one another. She brought the hand free from his grasp to the back of his neck and pulled him closer, deepening the kiss. After several moments, she finally pulled back, her lips swollen, and rested her head against his as she tried to catch her breath.

"No one ever will again," she whispered breathily, looking straight into his piercing blue eyes.

If they ever make it out of this, which it looked like they might, Addison would never give herself away again. She knew that she could only love Derek Shepherd, the only man her heart, body, and soul was for. Betraying him had been the most difficult thing to do, the most difficult thing to overcome. He was still willing to try and make this work and that was really all that they needed.
dr_shep on December 31st, 2006 08:05 am (UTC)
Derek enjoyed that he had taken her by surprise. She had allowed his tongue to slip into her mouth unobstructed and not even had sense enough to kiss back for moments. It proved to him that kissing her had been the right thing to do. It was the only way he could communicate what he wanted, and it worked so much better than words.

When she finally did react to the kiss, it was amazing. He wanted it it to be the most memorable kiss of their relationship. This was their reconnection. After this, no one would have claim to Addison. She would be his.

His lips curled into a smile as his eyes met hers when she finally pulled away. Their breaths were mingling in the air, and he couldn't stop his eyes from traveling down to her swollen lips. Being able to make her react like that always made Derek a little bit proud. He brought a hand up and brushed a lock of hair away from her face and tucked it behind her ear.

"No one," He repeated, making sure she understood how much he actually meant it.

Slipping his hands into her hair so he had just a little more control over her, he brushed his lips against hers, "You're mine."
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Derek was completely focused on Addison as she orgasmed. The way her eyes drifted closed and the way his name came from her lips. He listened to her moans and couldn't resist capturing her mouth in a kiss as her muscles convulsed around him.

It wasn't long after Addison reached her peak that Derek reached his. Waves of pleasure coursed through his body as he became fully reconnected to her. He was hers now and nothing could change that.

His eyes drifted closed, and he called out her name, riding out his climax with long forceful thrusts.
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Addison kissed him sloppily as he came inside her, her arms going up to wrap around his neck. Hugging him tightly, she moved her face so their cheeks were pressed against one another. Her breathing started to slow and become less shallow as she eased out of her state of euphoria, her fingers gripped his back, not wanting to let him go.

She didn't want this moment to end. It was too grand to be over so soon. Not only that, it was like their earlier moments of bliss. After it was over, they would have to face more pain. It was going to be easier now that they'd gotten back to being Addison and Derek, but it was still going to hurt. There was still a lot for the two of them to work out, a lot to discuss. Many confrontations with their past would be brought up. Many tears will be shed, but they were going to get through it in the end.

Holding him tighter, Addison unwrapped her legs from around his waist. She stared up at the ceiling through half-lidded eyes and placed a kiss on the side of his face. "I love you, Derek," she whispered against his cheek, their bodies pressed up against each other. They were one again.
dr_shep on January 2nd, 2007 06:11 am (UTC)
Derek dropped forward, still on top of her as they both came down from their bliss. He smiled slightly at her arms wrapped so tightly around him, refusing to let go; he loved the feeling of her holding him.

He loved that she wasn't loosening her arms' hold on him as they lay their, breathing slowing to a normal pace. He didn't want this moment to end. They were truly reconnected; Addison was truly his. He was hers. Their marriage had come a full circle, back to the connection and love they had felt during their honeymoon and newlywed stage (although Derek had no illusions about how much work he would still have to do to rediscover some of his love... he'd been a pretty poor husband of late).

For the first time since finding her in bed with Mark in New York, Derek could honestly say he could put Addison's adultery behind them. He would still remember it, sure, and it would probably always be a sore spot in their relationship. It didn't just go away because he had found a way to forgive her and love her again, but it didn't matter as much. He didn't want to hurt her because of it anymore. He just wanted to love her.

And he knew that Meredith was behind him. She had been a breath of fresh air, an escape from a cheating wife, but that was really all she had been. Everything else Derek had told Addison had been a fabrication. He had been trying to find a replacement Addison, and Meredith was no Addison. Addison was his love.

There were still things they had to discuss. There would still be pain, but they were together now. They could overcome their struggles. If they could be here, right now, they could overcome anything. Derek and Addison would ultimately prevail. There wasn't another option.

He smiled as she kept her arms around him and released his waist. She didn't want to let go, either. This moment was meant to last forever.

"I love you too, Addie," He whispered back, pushing himself up slightly and brushing his lips across hers, "Thank you."
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dr_shep on January 3rd, 2007 09:52 am (UTC)
Derek kept his eyes completely focused on Addison as her pleasure reached its peak. He didn't stop the soft teasing of his tongue against her clit nor the movement of his fingers. She came onto his fingers, and he finally pulled away as she finished. He smiled at her, wiping his chin slightly before beginning a reverse trail of kisses up her stomach and finishing with a sloppy kiss.

This kind of intimacy had once been an almost daily occurence when they had first been married, and adventurous things like that hadn't been rare at all. He had every intention of reinstating it now. He had every intention of completely reclaiming her body (although he'd done a pretty good job of that alreadying) and rediscovering everything that made her happiest.
xaddis0nx on January 3rd, 2007 11:13 am (UTC)
Addison kissed him as best she could while she tried to catch her breath. She could taste and smell herself on his lips as she closed her eyes and enjoyed the closeness of their bodies. Her hands traveled up his sides and rubbed his back lovingly, wrapping her arms around him to pull him even closer.

How much she loved and missed this could not be put into words. The feeling of being with Derek was beyond amazing. He knew her so well and he knew exactly what to do to make her hot all over. Addison was always his because only he knew what drove her wild and what reaction he would receive with each action. She was his and nothing was going to change that now.
dr_shep on January 3rd, 2007 06:49 pm (UTC)
Derek ran his tongue along hers, smiling against her lips at her need to pull him even closer. He allowed both of his hands to make their way up her sides, exploring the soft skin. As they almost always did, his hands found residence in her hair, tangling in the red locks slightly so that he could hold her head for more control.

He could feel all of Addison's physical reactions to what he had just done, her racing heart, labored breathing, swollen lips, and he felt no shortness of pride and satisfaction. He loved making Addison his first priority. He loved satisfying and pleasing her, and he had almost forgotten exactly how much satisfaction it could give him.

Finally, he pulled back from the kiss slightly and took her lower lip softly between his teeth, enjoying the feeling of her breath against his mouth.
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dr_shep on January 5th, 2007 07:53 am (UTC)
There it was, again. They were talking about the future as a specific thing. It was more than planning their day together. It had the indefinite time frame of planning their life together. They had used to talk like this when they were first together, fantasizing about mornings spent reading the paper after they retired and all of the places they would travel to (and have wild sex in).

He had wanted to be back there... back here for longer than he would have admitted. When he'd been with Meredith it had been all about when they could have sex again or... no. Meredith hadn't been about much more than sex. And when he'd gone back to Addison, they had made plans for dinner and maybe carpooling to work. That was as far as their plans had ever made it.

"No," He shook his head, rolling over so his chin was resting on her covered stomach, "You're going to be old and wrinkly. I plan on being this beautiful forever."
xaddis0nx on January 5th, 2007 08:21 am (UTC)
Addison's laughter filled the air and she brought her hand to his hair, ruffling it up a bit. "There you go being vain again," she said teasingly, her hand going to the back of his neck, letting her fingers play with the soft curls she found there.

"You know, I really don't find that charming or dreamy," she informed him with a smirk.

It was great; how easily it was for them to become happy. They could be said one second, talking about the darkest parts of their past and then the next, they're happy and carefree, talking about their future together. Addison loved this. It hadn't always been like this in the past, especially in Seattle, but New York hadn't been much better either.

She would bring up Derek not being around anymore, and he would blow her off, the two of them ending up just going to sleep without discussing anything. In Seattle, everytime something was mentioned, things got worse. Mark's first time in Seattle had been horrible and they went through a rough patch that they never really got out of until now.

Things were different now, and they were much better.
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dr_shep on January 6th, 2007 08:22 am (UTC)
The grin on Derek's face grew, and he crawled under the covers reaching to pull her on top of him instantly. He ran his hands along the bare skin of her back, dipping to run them along her bottom before trailing them upwards to brush at her hair.

"You know," He smiled playfully at her, lifting his head off the pillow to give her a quick kiss, "We're not hurting for money, by any means, and we have your trust fund. I vote we stay in bed like this forever. No work. Just you and me."
xaddis0nx on January 6th, 2007 08:51 am (UTC)
Addison lightly caressed his shoulders a little before scooting down a bit and lying fully on top of him, her head resting against his chest. She lifted her head and placed her chin there, looking up at him and smiling. This was perfect; being able to feel every inch of his skin pressed against her own and thinking about staying like this forever.

"As wonderful as that sounds, Derek, I think Richard might try and hunt us down," she said, snuggling up against him and nuzzling her cheek against his chest again. "I don't know about you, but I, for one, do not want Richard finding us like this ever."
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dr_shep on January 8th, 2007 06:55 am (UTC)
Derek breathed deeply as Addison ended their kiss. He knew if he teased just enough she would take control. She always did. She had always liked it when he was in control, but there were times when Addison would take charge and let Derek be the passive one. It was never really a battle (altough they sometimes pushed each other to that point... especially when they were angry), just an unspoken decision.

He ran his hand softly along her side, pulling her closer to him so almost every inch of their skin was touching. "Of course I'm good at it. I've been practicing for a dozen years," He brought his lips closer to hers for a quick kiss.
xaddis0nx on January 8th, 2007 07:15 am (UTC)
Addison tangled her legs with his and wrapped her arm around him again, pressing herself against the length of his body. She snuggled into the pillow and just lay there staring into his eyes. They were always something she'd admired and could spend hours staring into. Now that they were filled with so much love and affection, she never wanted to stop. She wanted to see this sparkle in his eyes forever because the feeling of being loved she got from it was absolutely divine. She never wanted to give that up.

"Well, the practice has certainly paid off and I'm definitely not complaining," she said, smirking as she leaned in for another kiss but ended up turning away and covering her mouth with her hand as another yan escaped her lips.
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