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27 December 2006 @ 08:24 pm
Seattle Grace Hospital  
Addison had left the trailer, a heavy feeling hovering over her. She knew the moment she and Derek shared in the trailer wouldn't be their last happy moment together. There were going to be lots of moments in which they would go out and find their love for one another again. The only problem was they would have to make time to work things out, to talk about the past, about Mark and Meredith, about why they fell apart.

It wasn't fair. Why couldn't they just know and move on? Why did they have to bring out the pain and everything that's happened? Addison knew it was something they needed to do. She knew very well without talking about those things, their marriage would fall apart again. She just wished they could fast forward through all of that and just be happy, just be Addison and Derek.

Of course, life never worked that way and they would have to battle it out, hoping and keeping faith that they would come out of it alive and stronger than ever.

She'd gotten Finn's first text message on her way to the hospital but decided against texting him back until she got to the hospital; however, by then he'd already withdrawn his first request and told her to take a rain check. Noting that she really needed to talk to him, Addison made a mental note to contact him later. The night before had been complicated and she was sure she'd led him on. Now things were different and she was going to work things out with Derek so she needed to tell him. He was a good friend and she was sure that she would need his shoulder to lean on when things got tough with Derek so she needed to be absolutely honest with him.

Her day had gone on with very little difficulty. Everything was the same as always. Patients, babies, mothers; just the same thing she dealt with on a day to day basis. Her mind however drifted to Derek quite often. They always had, but this had gotten to a point where she almost couldn't keep her mind off of it. Her mind was on Derek when she walked down the halls. It was on Derek when she wrote notes in a chart. The only time she could tear her mind away from Derek was when she was actually in surgery. She was a surgeon and her patients deserved the best. She would not let her personal life jeopardize a patient's life.

Now Addison was staring blankly down at a chart at the nurses' station, pen in hand but unmoving. All she could think about was Derek, wondering when she'd be able to see him again, when they could have a moment like they'd had that morning. She missed the sheer bliss and playfulness they'd always shared in the beginning of their relationship. The morning let her get a glimpse of that again and all she wanted was for every moment to be just like that; Addison and Derek, the way they were supposed to be. It was just a dream, but it was dream she was going to hold on to.
dr_shep on January 8th, 2007 12:43 am (UTC)
Derek smiled, feeling their breaths mingling in the short space between their faces. He brought his hand to the side of her face, brushing her hair from her cheek and cupping the back of her head, "Convincing? I can be very persuasive." He pulled her in for a kiss, darting his tongue out slightly to seek entrance into her mouth.

He was the luckiest man in the world. Years before, in med school, Addison had been considered quite a catch. She was beautiful and smart, and she had picked Derek over all of her other offers (including a few rumored offers from Mark). He'd been lucky then to have her pick him and agree to marry him, but he was even more lucky now. He'd screwed up everything, and she was still here. She was still choosing him years later.

Yes, he was very lucky, but he didn't have any illusions about his luck lasting forever. Addison would wise-up and stop giving him chances eventually if he kept screwing up. He wouldn't give her the chance to want to leave because he was going to keep convincing her that he was the right choice. Because Derek loved her, and that was all that mattered.
xaddis0nx on January 8th, 2007 02:06 am (UTC)
Smiling against his lips, Addison purred softly in satisfaction into his mouth. She let his hand guide her but didn't stop herself from deepening the kiss as she wished. Parting her lips, she allowed his tongue to enter her mouth, being rather passive at times and just massaging his with hers gently once in a while.

That fact that they'd made it so far was something Addison would always marvel. They've been through lots of happy days which were followed by dark and sad times. Still, she and Derek had been able to get back here, and that was amazing in and of itself.

Finally, she pulled back from the kiss, her breathing coming out labored as her eyes fluttered open to look at him again. "I think...you've come real close to making me change my mind," she said breathily, pressing their foreheads together.
dr_shep on January 8th, 2007 02:40 am (UTC)
Derek chuckled softly, at least as much as he could with a heavy as his breathing was. He looked into her eyes, knowing that the lust and love he found there was mirrored in his own. He pressed a soft kiss to her lips.

"Close? You're certainly hard to please, Addie," He wondered breathily, "But I am more than up to the task."

He brought their lips together but didn't initiate any kiss. Teasingly, he darted his tongue out as if licking his lips, but, since their lips were touching, his tongue moistened hers as much as his.
xaddis0nx on January 8th, 2007 04:09 am (UTC)
Addison smirked slightly before encasing his tongue between her lips and his. She lifted a hand to the side of his face, her fingers against the back of his neck and pulled him closer. Her teeth clinked together when she turned slightly and moved closer to him.

She loved being in control. It was just something she'd developed through out her years, most likely due to how passive she was in her early years as a high school band geek. College had allowed her change and blossum into something better, but it was Derek who'd helped her become who she really was; a surgeon, his wife, Dr. Addison Forbes Montgomery-Shepherd.

"I am," she said breathlessly as she pulled back slowly, giving him another soft kiss. "But you do a pretty good job of it."